A piece of my heART.

I wrote this poem about 2 years ago.. and until this day, it is my feelings exactly! I hope you guys like it and more importantly... I hope you guys are INSPIRED! : )

Dear Self,

I'm writing you this letter to make sure we're on the same page,
Because I know sometimes with time we can grow apart with age;
And simply i don't want to make that mistake.

I want to slow down if I'm moving too fast.
I want to savor each moment, instead of letting time pass.
I want to use my past as my path.
I want my path to lead me in a prosperous direction,
And I want to receive all my blessings that the Lord has in store for me with no exceptions!

I want to be just fine with just being me.
I'm not a perfect girl, nor will i ever be.
I don't feel any need in striving for perfection.
I don't want to be analyzed, revised, marked through with red lines symbolizing your corrections.
I'm okay with imperfections.

But Self, I know lately you've had to learn things the hard way, which resulted in disappointment.
At least you know better next time not to compromise yourself, your worth,and your pride
Just to hop on a fantasy ride, that usually dies down or eventually collides.

I often ask, Why is it so hard to maintain self-love?
Why does it seem like my path is the most complex maze to freedom?
Why does every obstacle seem so hard to overcome?

Now, i realize that this maze is never ending.

I just want to be free.
I want to be at ease.
I want to sing with the birds.
I want to sway with the trees.
I want to be the springtime breeze that flows through the trees.
I want to meet peace.
I want to be a better me.
I want be my best.
I know my trials are test,
And I know mistakes are lessons learned, not regrets.

Self, sometimes i have a grip on life and in the same second i feel so lost.
I feel misguided, misused, and misunderstood on this voyage to find you.

It's like..
I loss, I'm losing, I'm lost.
I find, I'm finding, I'm found.
I search, I'm searching for common ground.

But, I'm gonna stay focused on my focus,
because i know in the end i will understand.
Whether it is on earth or in heaven.
Because, I know for every success in life...
There is a prerequisite sacrifice.
So, I will stay strong and persevere for Me, Myself, and I.

Naturally,
Ebony